I guess it's time for an update!
It has been 5 weeks since Cody and I split. I woke up one night this week and was like, "Where am I?!" Then I remembered everything. That was kind of weird, but it has only happened once since the first few nights in the new apartment.
I have had some very sad days and I have had some very happy days. As everyone kept telling me, the sad days will get fewer and fewer....and they have! Almost two weeks ago, I had a VERY catharsic day...and haven't been that low since! When I am happy now, I am REALLY happy! My entire world is wide open! When I am sad, it's just because I miss my usual comfort zone.
Life has taken on a different meaning since all of this. I spent 5 years doing the responsible thing and what was expected. You know what? Not anymore!!! I will do what I feel like and what makes me happy! I have had fabulous old friends and new ones come out of this to support me. I will never again take that for granted! I've seen what family really means. Some have been unconcerned and not been there...but I expected that from them. No great loss. What IS a loss is for me to take the valuable family for granted.
When all of this happened, I felt like I should never trust anyone and not let anyone matter to me anymore. Now, I see that the opposite is true. I invested so much into one person that I shut everyone else out....and THEY were the true jewels! I have realized alot in the past 5 weeks...and CONTINUE to learn more! What an experience! What a time of personal growth!
Anyway, Mel and I are headed to Nashville for a concert tonight. I am SuPeR pumped! WOO HOO! Girls' night!!! It feels awesome!
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