So I met with my attorney's assistant today. I haven't seen her since the very beginning of the divorce, when I was an emotional wreck. She saw me and said, "You look good! You look so happy....you just have this GLOW!" I know I feel so much relief to not have my ex or his parents on my back...but I didn't realize that it was so obvious to everyone else. The thing is, too, that she is the 3rd person to tell me this. The first person kept looking at me and saying, "There is just something different about you....you are SO happy!" The second person said the same thing, "You just have this GLOW."
I found out that he has been dating since the middle of September....which was a slap in the face for me. After thinking about it, though, I can handle it ok. That means that he was lonely and trying to fill a void....but was too immature to stand behind his vows and try to work things out with his wife. I saw him at a redlight last night at 5:45 and thought, "Oh! I wonder if he's going to meet his girlfriend or--wait--I don't care." And that was a good feeling. I really don't care. I thought about if it were he and I going to dinner....and that thought bored the snot out of me.
I can have REAL conversation now! I have opportunities open to me! I don't have to worry about my children being mentally challenged because of his genetics. I don't have to live beside his coddling nosey backwoods parents. Ahhhhhhh!
I'm loving this living by myself thing, too! My bed for my spare bedroom will be delivered next Saturday. I'm going to get my living room decorated at some point, maybe. I have curtains hung and a little wall decor. Yes, I found my stud! ;-) I have changed out 75% of the lightbulbs in this place, replaced my toilet seat, and changed out the plug on my dryer MYSELF. PLUS, I am taking out my own garbage! (That is my LEAST favorite thing to do!) By golly, who needs a man? This is awesome! Plus, when I go to clean the toilet, it is always spotless now.
So that just might be the reason for the glow....that or else I've stayed in the tanning bed too long. :-S
